At midnight, I turn 29. The official start of the final year of the decade that is supposed to shape the person you will be when you hit the magical number that 30…
I have been taking stock of where I am in life. I am doing what I always wanted to maybe not the way that 90% of people would do it but that is me, doing things the roundabout way instead of taking the well worn path of so many people.
I have stood back far more in recent times and actually though before I spoke which for many years it seemed to be something that I would never get the grasp of in my late teens and my 20s.
I suppose writing about my frailty and the stuff that has dominated the last 9 years has been a huge help. I have been recording and writing since 2013. There aren’t too many people in the career they hoped for when they were in school and of course there are exceptions to every rule and they are many working in their chosen field.
I suppose all these milestones are that bit more important now but I still am the one person who will turn 29 quietly and do likewise in 12 months time when I turn 30. Sweet Jesus even writing that down is funny. I couldn’t wait to turn 18 and now I am staring down the barrel of my 30th birthday.
For now though, it is again time to take stock of life and see where I am and what I am. Life does not turn out the way we plan it to, sometimes it will but sometimes it won’t and you will need to revisit your life plan.
The Life Plan, the thing that used to scare the shit out of me , being here at 18 , being there at 21 and then having life sorted by 30. House, wife, kids, That’s the way you are suppose to do it but as I alluded to already I don’t seem to have grasped that concept. What I am saying is I will do thing my way and see where that will take me….
What I am getting at is I have never been one to conform and accept the ordinary, my arrival on planet earth will tell you that. Being anointed only hours after birth and then fighting for life for 3 months should have taught me about the fighting qualities that are within me.
Hitting 29 later on will come and go but the reality that I will turn 30 in 12 months is really beginning to hit home and I hope that it will help spur me on in the next few years.
I have done my utmost to help people and be respectful of people from all walks of life. I hope to continue my volunteering and continue to give back to people. I have tried to be there for people in their times of crisis and of course I have my own go to people when I need to offload the feelings that have held me back. The battle in my head and mind has been difficult but over the last few years I have learned how to deal with that battle…
Looking to the future, the possibilities are actually endless, I never thought I’d put that phrase down on paper or say it out loud. I have turned into a far more relaxed person although it may not seem like it to many people.
I can look on the last 29 years with fondness, yes there have been plenty of tough moments but for the most part I would not want to start again.
I have lived out the dream of being in a position to get to talk to some of own best known sporting personalities like Jimmy Magee, I have spoken to Olympians , pole dancers , local people , I have been MC at a few events and reported on many sporting events. I have been at 3 World Cups in 2014 in France, 2015 and 2017 on home soil. I have tried to give a voice to some unknown sports people and done my best to write and record about women in sport…
Let’s hope I can continue my recording and writing in the future…. It is 29 and I am most defiantly not out…….