I just felt compelled to write this down instead of using Facebook. I have to say if certain people were not there for me, I would have done something harmful.
I have reset the clock several times and after so much soul searching and trying to understand my bloody mind and the workings of my brain. I have to be honest and say I have felt like a burden to so many for a long time.
Maybe it is just me or something else entirely but in my mind I have to keep my mouth shut and just get on with living whatever life is there for me.
Life as I know it is very different and I am now coming to terms with this particular issue. Many people struggle in daily life for different reasons and for that I am so sorry and I hope you will find your way to happiness sometime soon.
Happiness is a state of mind and I hope to reach that place at some point but if I am truthful I am still a long way from that place. Life is wonderful and then life is crap but that is the circle of life and I hope that my idea to reach for the pen and computer will again happen. The burning desire has returned.
Happiness has been found, I always reach for the pen to help in this scenario and write down the tough things that are playing on my mind. I do find things easier now to write down and speak up for those who think they can’t speak for themselves.
My journey has been littered to this point with stupid choices and wrong decisions but I am getting slightly better at making sure I don’t make the wrong choices as time moves on.
The past 14 months has tested so many mentally, financially and physically but the human body and mind is fantastic at being pushed to the limit and finding a way to cope.
I have found my peace and I really hope for those who are currently struggling for whatever reason you too can find your peace from somewhere too…